Sometimes I wonder if I should even have a blog anymore because my updating skills are practically nonexistent. I’m going to keep it because I have a feeling i’ll get in the groove again soon but I can’t make any guarantees on the frequency of my posts. I really want to blog more because I feel like every time I go to try & write a post, I am so overwhelmed due to the fact that i haven’t posted in so long! Bare with me haha, this post could be all over the place but hopefully when i’m on more of a schedule i’ll blog more so my thoughts are more organized.
i’ll be back at school in just a week. It blows my mind that this summer is coming to an end- life always moves so fast. To be honest, i’m pretty happy about it. I am soo eager to get back to school and I am ready to make it an amazing year. It is crazy how much can change in a year. I spent some time looking back on my old posts and I can’t believe how much has changed since I began blogging. There have been new friendships formed, old friendships strengthened again, break ups, weight loss, weight gain, and everything in between. A year ago I was just beginning the treacherous and complex journey to recovery and today I am at a healthy weight (and probably honestly the healthiest weight i’ve been at in my life).
Do I think i’ve changed? Absolutely. I feel like i’ve grown up a lot and it is really strange. I guess going to college, recovering from an eating disorder & all of the other things i’ve been through this year does that. I hope a year from now I am even happier than I am now. I want to be even more free of eating disordered thoughts. I know i’ve come a long way but I still have countless mental struggles that can be so irrational. Rationally, I have stayed within my goal range (which is 5 pounds) for over 4 months now but irrationally, I still fear that I will somehow gain a bunch of weight all of a sudden! It is so ridiculous but I know that with time, I will begin to trust my body more. I know this could be a challenge in a college atmosphere, but I think I can handle it considering how well I did this past year.
I’m not going to lie- even though i’m SO EXCITED to go back to school, i’m also a little (ok more than a little) anxious. This situation is going to be completely different from any other living situation i’ve been in. I’ll be living in the sorority house with like 40 other girls & no kitchen. I can have a fridge but the meals are provided & they aren’t exactly the healthiest. I’m trying so hard to not let this get in the way of my year, but sometimes I can’t help but stress about it a bit. Honestly, this should be such a great year for me– i’ll be forming some of the closest relationships i’ll have from college & I definitely don’t want to take that for granted. I figure I can make it work for me, and I can always have some of my own things on hand too. I’m definitely going to be blogging about how I handle making healthy choices while at school and balancing hard work with plenty of play 😉
& now for some food pictures…
yogurt breakfast- fage 2%, heart to heart & kashi puffs, chia seeds, peanut butter, banana… yum.
salmon patty on a sandwich thin! (not the whole meal)
a bar i bought & LOVED- small ingredient lists & still had 7g protein!
a faux frosty– honestly amazing! my obsession: 1/2 cup almond milk, 1 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder, 1 scoop vanilla protein powder, xanthum gum, & some sweet n’ low. I added in some blueberries
I also went out to dinner to a nearby Mediterranean restaurant with my family called Pomegranate. Started with roasted red pepper hummus & pita and then I ordered the chicken schwarma salad as my entrée.
I had to deactive my facebook for sorority rush (its a rule at my school for some reason) so I think that will also leave some more free time for blogging 🙂 yay!!
Also, super jealous of you guys who are at the HLS in Chicago… seems like a blast!!
Thanks for those of you who still read, it means a lot! I know I’m super sporadic.
Questions– 1) Do you have issues trusting your body when it comes to maintaining your weight? How do you counter irrational thoughts?
2) College students- how do you balance a healthy lifestyle with a college one? Anyone whose lived in a sorority house have advice? 🙂
Love you all & hope to be back soon!!
ps- go check out Coco’s giveaway 🙂