Because apparently my blog entries seem to be out-of-the blue nowadays (haha). They have been soo sporadic and no matter how much I want to get in the groove, I just haven’t seemed to! I think these lovely ladies can help me explain why.
You see, I really like to use this blog to send positive messages. I like to post any type of revelation I may have had because it makes me feel good & it feels worthwhile. But you know, the truth is, i’m not always feeling super positive nor do I always have something that is necessary 100% ‘worthy’ of saying. This summer, i’ve had to deal with a lot of adjustments/changes. In all honesty, this summer has been great but I really am just ready to go back to school. I want to have my independence, I want to meet new people, and I want to be in Madison. Nonetheless, I feel soo lucky to have such a great family & great friends to come home to!
Also, I seem to really keep myself busy. I am someone who absolutely loves my alone time, but never seems to really get it? I like to be surrounded by people. I’ve realized that discovering my independence is important though too. For so long I was always with someone, and this summer I have been on my own. The truth- sometimes its hard (& I don’t like to admit that). He was my #1 support system and I relied on him a lot for my recovery (& in life in general). But this is such an important time for me [being on my own] and I need to look at it as a good thing. I’ve wanted this independence for quite some time so now I am trying to embrace it and take advantage of it. I will get through this and know that I will be stronger and better off because of it all. I can be recovered on my own.
So my point? Well, this is kind of all over the place and I have a lot of points, but one of the great things about having a blog is the ability to reflect on your life. As selfish as it may be, I LOVE the fact that I have documented the past year and can remember times I would have otherwise forgotten. So even if I don’t always have the most positive or concise message, I want to blog. From here on out, ‘ really going to try to blog for my own pure enjoyment. I’m not perfect and i’m not always 1000% happy, and that is just fine! No matter what I may be going through, blogging can still be helpful to me. (i’m not entirely sure if any of this made sense).
In other news, some cool things have been going on lately 🙂
Cool thing 1– Trip to Madison! For a little action at some ‘hick’ bars with my friends (hope this doesn’t offend- all in good fun!!)! check it out..
delicious homecooked meal- sweet potato with butter & salt, grilled chicken, & side salad with light blue cheese dressing!
This was a ‘challenge meal’- I used to LOOVE a lean piece of steak every now & then, but since my ed I have probably only eaten it once or twice this whole YEAR! I went to Longhorn Steakhouse with my Dad and I ate half of a 7 oz sirloin, a sweet potato & some steamed veggies!
refreshing lunch 🙂 turkey & cheese panini, HUGE pear, & salad with honey mustard dressing, broccoli, carrots, radishes, & mushrooms!
Otherwise, things have been pretty good! I am seeing someone twice a week still to talk about ed-stuff & although sometimes I feel like it is over-kill, it definitely is nice to have some reinforcement. I’ve been following my meal plan& it feels really good- I have a lot of energy & everything 🙂 I hoped that all of this would be super easy once I reached my goal weight but that isn’t necessarily true. It is a constant journey/struggle & I am continuing to learn things about myself and what being healthy really means.
I would say be back soon, but my cousin’s wedding is this weekend and I will be in Chicago from Friday- Monday! I really hope to get into the swing of things when I get back. I hope you all have great weekends!!
1) Do you like your alone time or do you find that you like to keep yourself busy?
2) How do you deal with days when you aren’t feeling 100%?
3) What cool things have you been up to lately?
oh, & ps, I got a new camera! *phew* 😉
oh & pps- if you haven’t seen Inception. GO SEE IT NOW. I was shocked. amazed. enthralled. confused. Ok, now i’m being dramatic- but really. if you want to have a conversation about it, i’m down! haha.