heads up – this is an absolutely MONSTROUS post. Bare with me.
I am now back and free to update! My best friend from school/roommate next year visited me for my birthday & we had so much fun!
But first let me rewind & i’ll tell you a little bit about Canyon Ranch as promised. My sister, my 2 cousins, & my Mom & I went to celebrate my cousin’s engagement and upcoming wedding. Canyon Ranch is a spa resort that is dedicated to encouraging a healthy lifestyle. They have tons of group fitness classes and a really healthy cafe, along with AMAZING pools, a great spa & a beautiful beach. They list all the nutrition information and the food is all organic and natural. They focus on portion control and not on diet foods whatsoever.
We would spend the days while we were there at the resort and we went out to 2 nice restaurants which was also really fun.
The first day we got there we had lunch and I got the shrimp cobb salad.
Here is my sister with hers- it had a chocolate monkey attached!
this meal was clearly an amazingly unique experience! It was ridiculousy entertaining. Yes, I had some anxiety about the food- but I ate it and felt like I let myself enjoy the experience.
At the resort I was lucky enough to receive a few really relaxing treatments– massages, hair treatment & a back cleanse. They were all incredible and I felt so lucky to be able to be there.
My cousins & my sister & I did a boxing class one day. I wasn’t sure if i’d like it but I was shocked by how intense/how much fun it was!! This is us hard at work hahaha
We also had some fun playing an elephant game in the hotel room 🙂 My Mom finds the most random games.
We got home really late Sunday Night so I didn’t have a chance to celebrate Father’s day. Instead, we cooked dinner for my dad Monday Night! It was a lot of fun.
We made the famous CHEETAHS, fruit salad, salmon, salad & corn on the cob! Cheetahs were a huge hit– thanks Kailey!!
While she was here, we did many things, including: chilling by the pool..
& attempted to ride electric bulls
& danced our butts off!!
oops, whatevs- sorry for partying 😀
& lastly, I ran in a 5k this morning for Jewish Family Services & got it in 25 minutes 10 seconds! I was really excited because I’ve never run a 5k in that fast of a time (for a race). It felt really good even though I complained a lot about waking up early.
pre race fuel = yogurt mess
Clearly, I have been having some good times. I have been trying my best to just live in the moment and not let any eating disordered thoughts get in the way.
When I was at Barnes & Noble the other week I picked up a small book about mindfulness meditation. I read about how to be more present in any given situation and how you should make sure when you are talking to someone you are giving them your full attention. I want to follow this advice because I know that sometimes some of my eating disorder/emotional thoughts get in the way of my reality and it is so important to be a good listener.
Speaking of reality, I was talking to my friend who mentioned she felt like she gained the freshman 15 (she wasn’t upset but just kind of laughing about it) After she said this, I responded by commenting on how, in reality, no one can really notice/no one really cares about that except yourself. It is so true- in most circumstances, “fat days” are in our heads and the few pounds we may feel like we’ve gained are only noticed by ourselves. Why are we are own toughest critics?
A study by York University found proof that fat days are in our heads. You can read about it here. I’ve realized that I let how I feel some mornings/what I weigh (if I choose to weigh myself) affect my emotions so much. I have really been trying to change this because I realize that even if I did gain 2 pounds, NO ONE else notices and so I shouldn’t let it affect me. To be honest, I woke up this morning, decided to weigh myself, & the number wasn’t something I wanted to see. At first I was upset, but instead of letting it ruin my day, I had this brief epiphany after talking to my friend and realized that it is absurd. I don’t need to let my weight ruin my day. I am stronger than that.
Fat days truly are in our heads– attitude is everything. When I let myself have a positive attitude today, I found I didn’t worry. I ate healthy foods today and I focused mostly on the people I was with and the things I was doing, not the food i’d eaten/would be eating. I didn’t restrict and I didn’t binge and I feel really content at the end of the night.
“Any fact facing us is not as important as our attitude toward it, for that determines our success or failure. The way you thing about a fact may defeat you before you ever do anything about it. You are overcome by the fact because you think you are.” Norman Vincent Peale
Questions: What is your attitude towards fat days/positive attitude? Do you think about mindfulness in your every day life?