“How did it get so late so soon?
It’s night before it’s afternoon.
December is here before it’s June.
My goodness how the time has flewn.
How did it get so late so soon?” – Dr. Seuss
Despite the fact that the above quote is from none other than Dr. Seuss, for some reason it always makes me a little sad.
Since I was young, I’ve always resented the fact that time flies. Sure there are times when I’m more than thrilled that time has “flewn”: like when an exam is over, a fight ends, Gardner gets back from being out of town, and so on, but at the same time it always makes me sad. It seems as though when we are living, we are constantly thinking about the next thing. We struggle so much to live in the present and appreciate what we have now because something better is going to hapen tomororw, the day after, the week after, the month after, etc.
Yes, I have this knowledge. Yes, I recognize the fact that I am constantly living for the next thing but I still struggle on a daily basis to actually change this. I can’t believe it is already March and my freshman year of college is just a couple months from being over. I am determined to make these last couple months last. How? I don’t know yet, but I do have some ideas.
1. Wake up every day and have my first thought be a positive one.
2. Do what Gertrude I want to do.
3. Laugh a lot.
Good plan, huh?
What helps you live in the present?
The past couple days have been decent. I FINALLY finished midterms so I have a couple weeks off until my next one!
Saturday night I was a sick girl with literally NO VOICE so I made the smart decision to stay in and relax. I made myself a little dorm-friendly dinner because everyone else was out (and understandably so!) of a sweet potato (micrwowaved) with laughing cow & cinnamon , veggie burger on sandwich thin, chobani 0% & some peanut butter
I woke up Sunday and had a delicious breakfast- yoatgurt.
Yesterday I had a yogurt mess breakfast– my fav !
Lunch was not very photogenic.. haha oh well!! I also had some pretzels/apple on the side 🙂
Since yesterday was me & Gar’s two year, we decided to go out to dinner. We didn’t want to do anything too fancy since we just did for Valentine’s Day but I did some research and decided to go to a restaurant called Bluephie’s! Their ‘motto’ is “we’re serious about fun food” & they have tons of different options!
We both started with butternut squash soup 🙂 It was delicious & very thick!
We both loved our dishes and were really happy with the restaurant! It was something fun & different.
I was so tired and just lounged around for the rest of the night.
I’m not going to lie- the combination of me being sick/recent weight gain/loss of a friend led me to a couple “fat days” the past couple days. I was starting to get really anxious because I was so angry that I was feeling this way. I thought I was past those days by now. After talking it out, I realized that all women have “fat days” and the most important thing is that the feeling that I am bound to get on some days doesn’t change the fact that I am properly nourishing myself and that I am listening to my body (meaning- resting if I am tired/sick, etc.). It is ok to have days like that, and today I am feeling 95% better!
Another thing I wanted to mention is the power of words. It is interesting how with an eating disorder, certain words have different meanings. I had a friend from home text me after seeing recent facebook pictures and say “I just wanted to tell you how healthy you look! I am so happy for you“
Of course this was intended to be a compliment, but as soon as I read that I thought “So i look fat….” I mean- why HEALTHY? why not beautiful or pretty? I know how dumb it is, but the word healthy in that context to me means that I look like i’ve gained a bunch of weight.
Do certain words make you feel badly, even if they are intended to be positive?
On another. ed-free note, this weekend my sorority has another social 🙂 The theme is “my roommate made me wear it” so basically we are just supposed to dress totally crazy. Definitely expect/look forward to pictures.. it should be funny!
1) How do you get over “fat days?
2) The question above 🙂 do certain words make you feel badly, even if they are intended to be positive?
3) The question from wayyyy above- What helps you live in the present?