First of all, Thank you so much for your support. Honestly, it amazes me that so many people reached out and showed their sympathy/empathy. I know Brandi would appreciate it so much and i’m so glad that some of you even challenged yourself in honor of her.
Second, i’m sorry for my absense. My google reader hit 350 and I haven’t posted since Tuesday. One reason is that i’ve been busy. The other, though, is just that i’ve been trying to clear my mind a bit. It has been hard for me to read about and see others with eating disorders now that Brandi’s gone. For me, it hit home to the point where I truly believe I will never resort to my eating disorder again but I know that it isn’t going to change how other’s are living necessarily. I just wish everyone understood how valuable life can be when you give yourself what you want and deserve.
With that being said, i’ve been trying my very hardest to stay positive this week and focus on each day and doing what will truly make me happy.
“And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.” –Abraham Lincoln
There have been nights where I didn’t go out with my friends because I felt like I shouldn’t and there have been days where I did what made others happy, but not what made me happy. I’m not going to say this will never happen again, but I will say I am going to make sure that it happens a lot less. I want to be happy and I want to be able to look back without regrets. Eating/being healthy & exercising is and always will be important to me, as it should be, but I refuse to let it dictate my life.
Anyways, besides the awful event you all know about, my week weet fine with my new attitude. I found myself having longer conversations with people than usual, and truly seeing the good in my every day life. Eats have been great but not always pictured! Here are some of the food pictures I did manage to take.
Lunch: la tortilla tomato basil wrap with turkey, honey mustard & cheese, pop chips, apple, & pretzels.
so my eats have been boring & repetitive, but again I don’t see this as a bad thing AT ALL. I like to switch things up (and honestly, I am not afraid to) but when push comes to shove, most of the time I don’t have time to really come up with delicious new creations, so I often go for what I know I love!
This weekend has been nuts so far. Thursday night involved dinner with the girls at Frida’s…. can you say chips, salsa, and margaritas? 🙂 So fun! I ended up at a white trash party- though i wasn’t dressed for the theme… oopsss! Stumbled back to the dorms at approx. 2:30 am.
Last night was DANCE MARATHON! It is a fundraiser where you raise money and stay up all night & you cannot sit down. It goes from 7 pm-9 am. You are not allowed to sit at all! My friends and I made it until about 3 am until we left…but it was still fun! I played football with a five-year-old boy for about 2 hours haha.
At 3 am, my friend Leah & I made our way back to her apartment & we met up with Gardner and his friends and yeeah we were up til about 6 am. That must be the latest I have stayed up this year haha.
yeeeah- my friends passsed out!
Today I finally made it to the gym to run my mile! It is interesting how though I am allowed to exercise in moderation now, I still don’t always do it. I am so thankful I know longer feel the exercise compulsion that I used to.
& in addition to the Vitamin Water Zero lemonade, I found this guy:
XXX- acia-blueberry-pomegranate vitamin water zero. This was soooo good. Honestly, XXX is my favorite vitamin water flavor but I found very little difference between this vitamin water zero & the original vitamin water. It was so flavorful and delicious. I loved it.
Currently I have absolutely NO VOICE because I lost it this weekend, so I’m relying on these babies..
Any Saturday night plans? as much as i want to go out, I have a midterm Monday & no voice & a cough so i’m staying in to rest up and prepare!
What are you looking forward to this week? Me & Gar’s 2 year is on Monday!! and Monday is my last mid term 🙂
Have a fantastic night!