This morning, I found out news that I never thought i’d hear.
Brandi, a friend from my Intensive Outpatient Program passed away from heart failure two nights ago.
Brandi (who started her own blog after hearing about mine) was only 18 years old. She hadn’t graduate high school. She had so many friends and she was so full of life.
Tears immediately filled my eyes. Why Brandi? Why someone so young? I was reminded by many, including Steph, that her death will not be in vain. I will not let it. Let this be someone else’s wake up call. Someone’s opportunity to realize how valuable their life is and to kick their eating disorder out the window for good.
When I was in the worst of my eating disorder, I didn’t believe that it could actually kill me. I was in denial like so many are. This is proof that it can happen, as horrible as it is. All of you girls who are reading this and currently suffering, please put your life into perspective. Being thin is not as important as living.
My prayers go out to Brandi and her family & friends and I know she is in a better place.
Please, for Brandi, do something today that is outside of your eating disorder’s comfort box.
February 12, 1992- February 20, 2010. Rest in Peace.
Besides this awful news, things have been going pretty well. I’m not going to lie though, i’ve been struggling mentally. I have been having fears of gaining to a point where I Will no longer feel happy. I still have been sticking to my meal plan and after hearing about Brandi, I refuse to back down. I know I can do this and i’m already almost there and happier than ever.
Here are some eats from the past few days:
I have an econ exam Thursday so another stressful week. Sorry that this post is kind of short, I really am just kind of at a loss of what to say.
Hope you have a great week and please remember to do something for yourself!
What are you going to do to challenge yourself today?