No Day But Today

31 Jan

Hello Sunshines!!

Let’s rewind a bit…

Thursday for a snack I tried Pineapple 2% Chobani. I added honey sunshine and peanut butter.

Review: so good! I’ve heard a lot of bloggers talk about this particular flavor so I was excited to try it. I loved the pineapple chunks.

I had humo practice again that night (humo is a huge philanthropy at my school that sororities/fraternities put on) and grabbed a quick dinner with my friend afterwards. Then I just relaxed in Gar’s apartment with some of his friends for the night. I didn’t end up going out and i’m glad I didn’t!

Friday, I started with a breakfast that is all over the blog world right now- 2 packets of instant oats with about 4ish oz of plain chobani, nut butter, raisins, and banana. LOVED every bite!

I went to zoology, which actually went a little better. I could follow it more than before. Then I grabbed lunch around 1 before my 1:20 discussion. I was rushed and literally ate this in like 10 minutes :-\

I had a 3 o’clock therapist appointment and then I napped for a bit before the night got started. when snack time rolled around I made a yogurt mess (you know mee :] ) & it featured 2% strawberry banana chobani, go lean & pb!

Last night Gar & I had people over to his apartment so I ate dinner before I went over there!

It was such a fun night! We made margaritas and everyone was there for a while & then we went with a group to the bars.

At about 2 am we made a Q’doba run haha.. I ate a naked burrito!! I tried realllly hard not to feel guilty about it the next day- no big, people drunk eat all the time & what I got happened to be pretty healthy! I scarfed it down because i was one hungry chica!

Today was a relaxing day. Hung out at my friends house, ate lunch with friends, etc. etc. I only pictured my snacks because I was with other people for my meals!

My afternoon snack was DELICIOUS- vanilla chobani, kashi honey puffs, banana, and almond butter

Tonight I saw RENT! It is the travelling broadway show & Anthony Rapp & Adam Pascal are actually in it… omg it was so amazing!!

We got tickets at the student price at 6 then ate dinner at Cosi. I made my own sandwich which featured turkey, honey mustard, roasted veggies & spinach and had a cup of butternut squash lobster bisque on the side (sooo so good!!)

I love these lyrics

“There’s only us
There’s only this
Forget regret– or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today”

I love that outlook on life- live in the moment. live for today. tomorrow is not guarenteed. today is a gift.

I decided not to go out tonight after the show because I am tired and think I might be getting a cold :(. My evening snack was a heated up chocolate mint clif bar and almonds! This clif bar is so good

Now i’m bloggin, watching Miss America (nothing else is on-what can ya do? haha), and gettin ready to sleeeep!

Like I wrote previously, I am definitely noticing my weight gain right now. I am so thankful that I am able to view this in a positive way πŸ™‚ Honestly, I realized this weekend that I am now able to stay out with my friends. I used to get so tired and not be able to last because I didn’t have the energy but now I am able to have a great time out and not get too tired!

I have had urges to weigh myself. I still have a scale in my room but I have chosen to cover it with lots of things so I don’t see it. I literally had a mental conversation in my head with ‘gertrude.’ It went like somethin like this:

Gertrude: Come on, just weigh yourself. It won’t matter- you just need to know the number

Me: Why would i need to know the number? I’m more than a number. I feel great and have been following my meal plan, so who cares what I weigh?

Gertrude: But what if you’ve gained too much weight too quickly? What if you are being tricked by the people weighing you?

Me: There is no way they would trick me. No one wants me to be fat. They want me to be healthy. Besides, I know i haven’t gained too quickly!

I won πŸ™‚ I haven’t weighed myself in weeks and I don’t plan to!

Hope you all had wonderful weekends and have a relaxing Sunday!

questions:

1. What is your favorite musical? I LOVE Rent & Wicked!!

2. What is your view on weighing yourself? How does it affect your mood?



xoxoxoxox

Shelleyβ™₯

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90 Responses to “No Day But Today”

  1. Stef @ moretolifethanlettuce January 31, 2010 at 2:18 am #

    lol you named your ED gertrude? that is really funny! i like it better than Ed. so proud of you for getting drunk and eating a naked burrito, lol! seriously though, it’s great that you were able to kick back and have fun and do NORMAL things like going for late night mexican food. nice! that pineapple oikos sounds really good

  2. learningtocookeatandenjoydeliciousfood January 31, 2010 at 2:20 am #

    I was in treatment also and I to have a scale hidden in my room that taunts me from time to time to get on, but I have always found that it is better to NOT get on the scale, because NO matter what the number is I am always going to have my eating disorder telling me that I need to be a lower weight than I am, therefore I have decided that I am only allowed to weigh myself once a year and then when I go to the doctors, I am blind weighed and he tells me how I am doing at maintenance!! I really hope this helps, because I totally know how it feels to be so frightened that your treatment team is making you gain weight too fast. I hope that this is a little helpful!! Have a great sunday!!

  3. Averie (LoveVeggiesAndYoga) January 31, 2010 at 2:35 am #

    Hey Girl glad you saw Rent! I havent seen it in like 10 years, but hey it was good back in the day and no doubt still is!
    Thx for the Clif Minty Review there. Good stuff!
    xoxox

  4. vegfiguresk8er January 31, 2010 at 3:03 am #

    I just love reading your blog, I feel like you always have such positive things to say ( and amazing breakfasts! πŸ˜‰

    as for Q#2
    weighing myself totally affects my mood in a positive way and negative way, I wish I could just stop! but I feel like on days where I don’t weigh myself I think about it too much, and in the skating world I am in their is always a lot of talk and pressure to “know your number”

    keep up the good work! and thanks for always being so kind and positive πŸ™‚

  5. melonshot. January 31, 2010 at 3:09 am #

    love you ❀
    i havent weighed myself in years. \way to scared 😦

    i just cannot. at all. i always chose not to looks. i never have looked even when I was in IP 4 years ago 😦

    i want to enjoy yogurt messes for snacks. and WF bars. and freinds.

  6. taylor January 31, 2010 at 4:26 am #

    awesome that you dont step on a scale! hah i had the worst relationship with one. i threw a tantrum a few years back because my mom would hide it and the one day i couldnt find it! its embarrassing to look back on that now.. favorite musical? CATS. i know its no longer on broadway but it was simply amazingg.. i step on the scale once a week to make sure i’m good! i no longer have doctor visits to do this for me, i know i dont have to but it makes me feel better knowing how much i can eat and not be enormous like ED makes us feel. have an awesome sunday!

  7. Lexi January 31, 2010 at 4:58 am #

    So proud of you for ignoring the urge to weigh in. Seriously, that number does NOT matter! As long as you’re following your meal plan, and you’re happy, why should a number ruin any of that? Kick Gertrude’s ASS. Hell yeah.

    Glad you had a fun weekend with Gar and friends. I am loving all of the yogurt messes in this post!!

    Have a great Sunday!
    Love,
    Lex

  8. Marina January 31, 2010 at 5:02 am #

    I am so glad you had a great time with your friends!
    Your yogurt messes sound really delicious.
    I always weigh myself, alhtough my scale at home isn’t really correct. I can’t resist it :/ And it does affect me, so so much 😦
    Margaritas sound amazing. Me and my boy pretty often invite people over, and then he makes amazing cocktails. I love that, but after one or two, I usually fall asleep πŸ˜€

  9. gateauxbellehelene January 31, 2010 at 5:26 am #

    I’m so pleased you have a positive outlook on your weight loss. I know how difficult it is to see it that way so you are doing so well. Love your convo with ‘Gertrude’!
    Questions……..1 – I looooove Phantom of the Opera. It’s so romantic, I’ve watched my dvd so many times it must be getting worn out!
    2 – I used to weigh myself everyday which is pretty pointless as your weight can change due to water retention. Now I just weigh myself at the gym, usually when I remember! I feel bad if my weight goes over 8 stone as that is my ‘perfect’ weight. If that happens, I don’t normally weigh myself for ages!!

  10. tatiannalives January 31, 2010 at 5:58 am #

    I am sooo happy you are back and updating girl.. I missed you! I think it’s wonderful that you are spending so much time with Gar and friends rather than Gertrude πŸ˜› You are becoming quite the social butterfly and I couldn’t be more impressed!

    Favourite musical? I didn’t like Hairspray the movie, but I did see it live and it was awesome πŸ™‚

    I am so proud of you for not stepping on the scale! I wish I could say the same for me, but I am still trying to kick the habit. I usually weigh myself once a day, and I am NEVER satisfied with the number. It drives me nuts, but I can’t seem to stop it :/ I think we just need to trust our bodies.. we are all so different that we truly can’t compare ourselves to a number that has been standardized. What is healthy for you may not be ideal for someone else.

    Love you big siss πŸ™‚
    xox Tat

  11. katie January 31, 2010 at 7:40 am #

    Hey love!!!

    I have yet to try the pineapple chobani and the combo you made with it looks delish!!! I also need to try the Mint Clif Bar, I love mint!!!!

    So proud your doing so well, and I dont have a scale either, I havent weighed myself in a long time, its just a number, its how I feel, and I feel healthy and great!!!

    Love ya girl!!!

    My favorite plays are Wicked, it was the best play ever, saw it in Chicago, also Jersey Boys I loed, and saw that in Chicago too!!!

    xoxoxoxo

  12. Kristie January 31, 2010 at 7:44 am #

    Sigh, I’m jealous of all you people seeing Rent! I did get to see it when I was studying in Buenos Aires though πŸ™‚ You go eating that Naked Burrito – Chipotle is so dang good, especially at 2am!

  13. Gabriela @ Une Vie Saine January 31, 2010 at 8:16 am #

    Rent and Wicked are definitely my favorite shows too! Rent has awesome lyrics, I agree. Awesome that you saw it with some of the original cast!

    I weigh myself every few weeks. It used to stress me out, but now I see it as a good thing because it reminds me that eating normal amounts of food doesn’t cause weight gain! I’ve also had a tendency to lose weight if I don’t pay attention, so it’s necessary.

    I always snack when I drink! I go straight for the sweets πŸ™‚

  14. MelissaNibbles January 31, 2010 at 8:33 am #

    I love Rent! I’ve seen it five times and hope to see it when they come back around to my area. I love all musicals. Glee is the best thing to happen to tv and my life right now. haha!

  15. theemptynutjar January 31, 2010 at 8:35 am #

    Hi Shelley
    Beautiful eats as always. Yes, drunk eating is allowed! When I was in college, I would devour amazing amounts of whatever my hands could get on πŸ™‚ You were super duper “healthy”….branch out a little πŸ™‚
    I dont weigh myself now….usually every 4-5 weeks I end up doing it…I dont own a scale cause it broke and I can barely pay for gas in my car now, so it wont be wasted on a scale. The only reason I would want one anyone is to make sure I am gaining, so its a bit of a dilemma relaly.
    Never saw a musical “on stage” before…but video wise, I guess I liked Chicago and Moulin Rouge too. Have a nice day pretty girl.

  16. Gina G January 31, 2010 at 9:02 am #

    im so happy for you Shelley! way to listen to your body and not to gertrude, stay strong and positive!
    =)

  17. Dad January 31, 2010 at 9:02 am #

    Go Shelley! You’re kicking Gertrude’s butt!
    2 favorite musicals
    1. Blues Brothers (movie)
    2. Phantom of the Opera (play)
    You and Gar should definitely rent The Blues Brothers on one cold Wisconsin night that you’re staying in.
    Love,
    Dad

  18. Becca January 31, 2010 at 9:07 am #

    hahah it’s so funny that you named your ED gertrude lol. my sister calls me gertrude all the time hahaha, she thinks its funny, “Whatcha doin’ there gert?” is one of her favorites :]
    sounds like you are doing really well! i’m very proud of you :] stay strong and don’t let gert tell you stupid things because you are beautiful :]
    love,
    becca

    • Becca January 31, 2010 at 9:07 am #

      oh, and rent and wicked were my favorites as well!!!

  19. psychoj1 January 31, 2010 at 9:07 am #

    I hate weighing myself. I used to be a slave to the scale…no fun, no fun! I think it adds unnecessary stress!

    Great eats! I’m dying to find the new chobs flavors.
    ❀ jess
    xoxo

  20. The Candid RD January 31, 2010 at 9:18 am #

    I used to weigh myself often, but now I do it maybe once every two weeks. Or less. I just know so much about how water fluctuates our weight (especially women) and I just don’t trust the scale anymore, and I don’t feel like it really means anything. What I really want to know is if I’m healthy, and I know I eat well so in order to measure health there are much better ways than weight!
    Favorite musical: Cats! I also really love Rent. I have the soundtrack and it’s so addicting.

  21. Morgan January 31, 2010 at 9:30 am #

    How amazing that you got to see the “real” Mark and Roger! I adore RENT, I’ve seen it about 6 times and can recite the whole thing (kind of sad!). I also think Phantom is incredible. I really want to see Wicked, I love all of the music!
    Have a great weekend hun!

  22. Mitri January 31, 2010 at 9:33 am #

    I love hearing your positive attitude toward your life and your recovery πŸ™‚ I definitely notice a difference from when I eat healthfully than when I used to restrict more. Suddenly we have so much more energy and we can, um, actually stay up late with our friends πŸ˜‰

    I used to want to weigh myself every day, perhaps more than once, to “make sure” I wasn’t even gaining a lb (which obviously wasn’t a real lb). But even though I weigh more than what my brain says should be “ideal,” I have started accepting my weight a lot more. Since I am already at a healthy weight, when I see the scale, I just tell myself, “Maintain :)” rather than “loseloselose >O”.

  23. Susan January 31, 2010 at 9:34 am #

    Oh man, it’s been so long since I’ve seen Rent (I think it was in NYC in like 2003?). I love Wicked too!

  24. healthyquirks January 31, 2010 at 9:54 am #

    Your meals and outlook are awesome as usual; you’re so cute!

    As for the scale question, I do weigh myself every time I go to the gym. I’ve thought about ditching the habit, but I actually find peace in knowing “my number.” I have a lot of body issues and an extreme fear of gaining weight. I’m at a healthy weight, so while I’m maintaining its comforting to know that I didn’t gain weight because if I don’t know for sure I can easily convince myself that I became obese over night.

    I am hoping to ditch the habit one day, just not now.

  25. alyssaarminio January 31, 2010 at 10:07 am #

    rent just ISNT the same without adam and anthony! i’m so glad you got to see their brilliance! my favorite musicals are definitely RENT and SPRING AWAKENING. amaze.

    you’re doing fantastically! xoxo

  26. katie January 31, 2010 at 10:14 am #

    good for you girl! i dont weigh myself-just judge on how my clothes fit.. wayyy less pressure! and dont feel guilty about that burrito!! it was nothing anyway, and that is so true..tiny girls eat TONS at night when they are drunk..shoot i still eat a full meal RIGHT b4 i go to bed and im maintaining!! sounds like a great weekend love!

  27. Emily (http://funnyemily.wordpress.com) January 31, 2010 at 10:17 am #

    seriously i cannot believe you got to see anthony rapp and adam pascal. love them both to death.
    rent & wicked & spring awakening are my favorites πŸ™‚
    as for the scale, damn its frustrating, i hop on it when i’m at home and i’m always disappointed. but your right, we’re not a number. i’m working to stay away from it.
    way to go on qudoba, not one reason to feel one ounce of guilt.
    happy sunday!!
    xoxo

  28. Megan January 31, 2010 at 10:24 am #

    I love love love reading about all the progress you’ve made on your blog!! Definitely don’t feel bad about that burrito.. as long as it was delicious.. that’s all that counts!

    I never weigh myself.. I’ve learned only when I’m hungry (which happens to be very often!) and I know it’s okay to indulge every once in a while πŸ™‚

    My favorite musicals… Rent and Wicked too!!

  29. homecookedem January 31, 2010 at 10:30 am #

    You are doing so great!! I’m glad you’re continuing to tell Gertrude who’s boss!! πŸ™‚

  30. the vegster January 31, 2010 at 10:45 am #

    Oh my gosh I love Rent! I saw it last year with Adam and Anthony in it – totally amazing! Definitely one of my favorite musicals. And Mary Poppins and the Wizard of Oz (though I’ve only seen the movies) πŸ˜›

    You are definitely more than a number on a scale! It’s all about how you feel! So glad you can stay out with your friends again-that’s great!! Keep it up πŸ™‚

  31. BostonRunner January 31, 2010 at 10:55 am #

    My favorite Broadway show is Mamma Mia! I love broadway and I’ve always wanted to see Wicked!

  32. lowandbhold January 31, 2010 at 10:58 am #

    I love love love Qdoba. It’s so tasty. I like it a lot better than Chipotle.

    Yay for not weighing yourself. That is AWESOME!

  33. Lily @ Lily's Health Pad January 31, 2010 at 10:59 am #

    Katie, throw that scale out the window! The scale could make a person without an eating disorder go crazy. It just doesn’t mean anything. I’ve been the same jean size for about 4 years. When I weight myself, my weight could be 7 pounds different one day than the next, and really its just water weight.

  34. seekmyself January 31, 2010 at 11:00 am #

    Oh no, girl! I hope you’re not coming down with a cold. Feel better soon πŸ™‚

    Good for you for resisting the temptation to get on the scale! I tend to stay off the scale, mostly because it got to a point where no matter what number I saw, it made me miserable. A gain was scary. A loss was scary. Maintaining was disappointing… I realized that no number would make me happy. It definitely has more to do with how you feel about yourself… and it looks like you’re feeling great πŸ™‚ I agree that being able to stay out with friends and enjoy life is way more important than any number.

    ❀

  35. funfashionista January 31, 2010 at 11:05 am #

    your oats look awesome! great job on not weighing yourself girl. i have found that weighing yourself does absolutely nothing. there is no perfect number that youll be happy with! if its too low your like oh shiiiit! lol and if its tooo high your like ohhh shit!! haha so my conclusion = no weighing!!! great job on fighting gertrude lol πŸ™‚
    amy<3

  36. Danielle January 31, 2010 at 11:20 am #

    I love to see that you’re “winning!” It’s very inspiring
    I used to weigh myself every day…then every week…and now I haven’t weighed myself in months. It’s just a number! It shouldn’t dictate anyone’s mood or confidence πŸ™‚

  37. lindsey January 31, 2010 at 11:31 am #

    i’m so glad you have been having fun with your friends! and congrats on beating ED with the scale, i swear that’s the most tempting thing EVER. but you’re right, you are more than a number and you don’t need that stress. and you’re right…no one is making you fat, it’s HEALTHY. i’m so happy for you that you are seeing the weight gain in a positive manner! but remember on those bad days, that it is good, and go back and read this post. it is inspirational πŸ™‚

    ♥ lindsey

  38. Melissa January 31, 2010 at 11:40 am #

    Soooo jealous that you got to see Rent with some of the original cast members! I love Wicked too.

    You have good taste in musicals. πŸ˜‰

  39. Meg's Gut January 31, 2010 at 12:23 pm #

    Wicked is an amazing musical!!! Rent is pretty awesome as well πŸ™‚
    My favourite is The Lion King though!!

    I think it doesn’t matter how much you weigh. As long as you are healthy. Who cares what the number says right? You could be full of amazing muscle, have glowing skin, healthy hair and nails and weigh more then what the numbers on the chart says for you to be ‘normal’, but really you are your normal and healthier than any number says.

  40. justjac January 31, 2010 at 12:27 pm #

    I love musicals too!
    Sometimes I think it’s helpful to see my weight, and sometimes, I don’t! Idk does this make sense??…I guess it depends on my mood and current outlook. It is good if you know it doesnt work for you though and can avoid it at all costs.

    Way to go with the naked burrito. Was it good?

  41. Ariffa January 31, 2010 at 12:41 pm #

    eeep I LOVE RENT too, it was on tv last night I was one happy girl

  42. Sara K January 31, 2010 at 1:08 pm #

    Great job on avoiding that scale! Are you planning on keeping it or chucking it out soon? (i think you’ll want to do the latter ;D) Plus they aren’t even accurate since our weight fluctuates so much in the course of a day.
    Your eats look fabulous as always- I’m still trying to find strawberry-banana chobs!

  43. Jessica (jesslikesithot) January 31, 2010 at 1:11 pm #

    Hey hun! Glad you didn’t give into the scale…you’re better than that πŸ™‚

    You know I say just throw that thang out!!!!! Who needs it?!

    You’re so sweet and i’m so happy you had a fun night out and enjoyed a delishh burrito as a late-night snack! Believe me, my friends do this weekend after weekend and have SURVIVED! Hahaha, The oat-y yogurt mess looks great! Enjoy your Sunday girl! XOXO

  44. onehealthyapple January 31, 2010 at 1:31 pm #

    Warmed up clif bar? Yes! I think I would top mine with ice cream and make a sundae!

    Sounds like you are having a great time with friends and you most certainly have the energy, just like you should!

    Oh, and the scale- I’m an old fart at 25 and that lame device has been ruling me for at least 8 years. I decided to let it go. I weigh myself maybe once every couple of weeks out of curiosity, but I mostly go by how my clothes feel. The scale is an angry piece of metal and I hate how it makes women feel bad about themselves.

    Glad to hear you are doing so well! Along with the gain comes booty and curves..all good!

  45. Abby January 31, 2010 at 1:46 pm #

    AHH I saw rent a few yrs ago and had the songs in my head for weeks! What a fabulous play. My fav would have to be Les Miserables or Phantom (Im old school).

    Your snacks/meals look fabulous, Miss Shelley. You certainly seem to be thriving and I am so happy for you. Keep up that positive attitude.. its so refreshing!

    Happy Sunday, dear πŸ˜‰

  46. whydeprive January 31, 2010 at 2:09 pm #

    My parents used to hide the scale on me. I would search for it frantically until I found it, and then put it back in exactly the same spot so they wouldnt know. They re-hid it every week or so and I hated them for it. It was hidden so well once that I was convinced they threw it away. I know they didnt now because its been back out for a few years. Same scale. They hid that sucker WELL!
    Anyhow, Im glad I couldnt find it because it forced me to stop weighing myself every day.
    I think that was the most important part of my recovery.
    It helped me realize that the number has nothing to do with my happiness.

  47. Michelle (Snacks and Field) January 31, 2010 at 2:28 pm #

    You microwaved a Mint Chocolate Clif bar!??! That sounds amazing!! That’s one of my favorite flavors- I’ll definitely have to try it! And all your other food looks delicious too! Sometimes going out messes with my eating schedule too- but I’m like eh, whatever! I had a fun night and can’t dwell on what I eat those days! And Wicked is def my fav musical πŸ™‚

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  49. Melinda January 31, 2010 at 2:34 pm #

    Your eats always look amazing- I love Kashi honey sunshine btw! πŸ˜€

    And yeah I hate weighing, it always affects my mood and unfortunately I allow it to make or break my day/mood that I am in. It is just a number and it doesn’t define who we are- good for you for saying no to the scales! πŸ™‚

  50. Lindsey January 31, 2010 at 2:36 pm #

    I really enjoy your blog and it’s so refreshing to see someone taking the steps to good health, very inspiring

    Also, I am an OHIO college grad (BGSU), still make a few trips to OSU for some good ol’ tailgating! πŸ™‚ Enjoy your college days, they go by so fast!

  51. Nelly January 31, 2010 at 2:44 pm #

    I just find my energy level is so much lower in the winter….I need my sunshine!
    You need to go to whole foods for these salmon burgers…they are amazing!
    Love your blog girl…keep workin hard!

  52. Heather January 31, 2010 at 2:48 pm #

    Great job talking Gertrude down! I usually don’t think about weighing myself unless I feel like I haven’t been eating very clean the past few days. I can normally tell where my weight is by how my clothes fit but sometimes I just like to know the number. Usually it tends to surprise me in a good way!

  53. blueeyedheart January 31, 2010 at 2:48 pm #

    My view on weighing yourself is that it should never, ever be done… I used to do it every. single. day. And it killed me no matter what the scale said, so now I try to never do it anymore!! It can be really hard to fight that urge sometimes, but I’m so glad that you did; it’s not worth it to get on the stupid thing.

    Thank you for your sweet comment on my last post, I really appreciated it. πŸ™‚

    ❀ ❀

  54. Simply Life January 31, 2010 at 2:54 pm #

    Oh I’m loving your yogurt combos – I really need to try that!

  55. julia January 31, 2010 at 3:23 pm #

    Girl…I’m so proud of you! Because one of the most important AND most difficult things to do is to get your real life back, do the normal things…don’t you ever feel guilty in any way about it. I’m so proud and you should be too:)

    xxx Julia (Taste of Living)

  56. julie January 31, 2010 at 3:23 pm #

    RENT IS AMAAAAAZING! it was so good and so glad you got to see it πŸ™‚

    yogurt+oats is the best combo ever!!

  57. izzy January 31, 2010 at 3:44 pm #

    I’ve been DYING to see Wicked! Have you read the book? It’s amazing and apparently kinda different from the show…Rent the movie, was so amazing.

    I’ve had to ban myself from weighing cause it really triggers me – whether the number moves up or down. Down makes me feel like I’m doing “something right” and up just plain triggers me.

    I LOVE your attitude towards fighting off your ED. Youre so strong and I think if we all approached it how you are (even in your inner quarrels with “Gertrude”), we’d all be better off!

    izzyy
    xoxoxx

  58. Sam January 31, 2010 at 3:47 pm #

    hey Shelley!
    jeez i REALLY have to get some almond butter- sounds so good and looks so amazing in that yogurt mess!
    my favorite musical is hands down wicked!
    && i dont weigh myself. infact my mom actually hid the scale AND my wii fit board so i have no way to find out my weight. i don’t let my doctors or nutritionist tell me my weight either and even though hiding it may sound extreme it really helps considering i used to weigh myself probably 20 times a day!
    anyways- im SO proud of you for kicking some major Gertrude ass and not giving in to stepping on that scale because honestly- the numbers really dont matter(:
    stay positive girl- youre doing soo good!
    -Sam

  59. Anna January 31, 2010 at 4:10 pm #

    RENT=THE SHIZ. I took a Musical Theatre class last semester and we studied Rent. It is so good. My other favorite musicals are Spring Awakening, Billy Elliot, West Side Story, and 42nd Street. I’m such a theatre dork haha

    I’m really proud of you that you did your best to not feel guilty over your late night Qdoba run. When I was in recovery my nutritionist reminded me that it is normal to eat like that on occasion. Part of recovery (I feel) is giving ourselves permission to eat without fear/immense guilt.

  60. Jenna January 31, 2010 at 4:26 pm #

    I’m with ya girl.. I used to hate going out because I would have no energy and it sucked!
    Yog messes all look great and I must try the oats with yogurt in the am- I have tried overnight oats and yog but not this recipe!
    The cool mint choc is one of my FACS- heated up sounds delish- must give it a try!!
    Great job on beating ED!!
    Jenna xo

  61. Shelley January 31, 2010 at 4:34 pm #

    Favorite musicals… Wicked and Phantom of the Opera. Hands down.

    Weighing… Other than the usual time I weigh myself, I only want to when I’m already overwhelmed with other things. It’s like kicking myself when I’m down, and who wants to do that? Thinking about it like that helps me stay away!

    Your blog is great, and so is your name! Hooray for the E-Y!

  62. Jessica Zara January 31, 2010 at 4:59 pm #

    Phantom of the Opera is my favourite musical by far…so dark and beautiful and captivating. I can watch the film version over and over again.

    Scales totally dictate my mood for the day and to be honest they just aren’t worth it. No set of scales are 100% accurate and they all weigh differently anyway. Mine are in a dark corner somewhere and shall be gathering dust for months to come. My Dad is blind weighing me from now on on his set as I make the journey towards getting healthier again.

    Love all of the yogurt messes! Yum πŸ™‚

    ❀

    ~Jess~

  63. Sarah January 31, 2010 at 5:55 pm #

    Hey dear! I love Rent- especially Seasons of Love ; )
    I don’t weigh myself and I think it’s been crucial to my recovery. Maybe you could put your scale in Garth’s room so you won’t be tempted. You are so much more than a number, and I’m glad you know it.
    Hope you’re having a fab weekend!
    Sarah

  64. adrienmelaine January 31, 2010 at 6:26 pm #

    I love all musicals- Rent and Sound of Music are definitely at the top- as is Greese- and Mama Mia (even the Meryl Streep version!)

    And yes- weighing myself does affect me- wish it didn’t, but I try not to more then once a week, it took me a while to get to the point of accepting the fluctuations but I’m living..

  65. Hannah Leeman January 31, 2010 at 7:05 pm #

    Shell I’m so proud of you for not weighing yourself. You are so strong and I am thankful to God that you are realizing that, too. You have made a complete 180 and I’m right here behind you. Please call me more!
    Love you.
    Hannah

  66. daintyvegan January 31, 2010 at 7:46 pm #

    Yay for beating Gertrude! Hehe.. I’m so happy for you! =D Gertrude stands NO chance against you. Also, congrats on the burrito, I know things like that aren’t easy but you did amazing!

    This is going to sound crazy but.. I’ve.. never been to a live musical. I’ve watched musical dvds but never had the chance to experience one live. Crazy, crazy stuff.

    The scale has a huge impact on me. I weigh myself everyday and if I’ve gone up then I’m usually not in as great a mood as the one I’m in if I see that I’ve gone done. I’m working on this though. I use to weight myself multiple times a day, then twice a day, and now only once. It’s an improvement so I’m happy with that. =)

  67. Lynne January 31, 2010 at 8:00 pm #

    I saw Rent in July with Anthony and Adam and it was amazing. I loved every minute of it. Rent has been my favorite musical ever since I saw it for the first time 12 years ago.

  68. crazylittlethingneela January 31, 2010 at 8:10 pm #

    aww the weighing game! i am so glad you had the strength to resist you ED.
    i have totally given up on weighing myself. i rather see how my clothes fit me. every number on it will make me go bad so i just decided there is no weight for me in this world πŸ˜‰

  69. jocelynsteiber January 31, 2010 at 8:35 pm #

    I love musicals! I’m constantly singing to myself..yes I’m THAT cool : ) haha

    I’ve never seen Wicked but I heard it’s really good! I love the Lion King (such amazing costumes), Mama Mia, Chicago, REnt! Love them all

    I don’t own a scale anymore. It used to determine my mood each day so I decided to get rid of it!

    xo

    Jocelyn

    http://peacelovenutrition.wordpress.com/

  70. caronae January 31, 2010 at 10:41 pm #

    I love all your chobani snacks and brekkies. They look wonderful! And good for you for having such a winning convo with yourself πŸ™‚

  71. The Fit Collegiate January 31, 2010 at 10:47 pm #

    Great attitude towards your weight gain, honey! And good outlook w/ the drunken eating thing, too…I come back to my room and literally SHOVEL crap into my mouth after a night out. The next day I’m always tempted to restrict, but drunk eating is good because it definitely reduces the severity of your hangover. πŸ™‚

  72. Bethany January 31, 2010 at 10:58 pm #

    When I still had my scale, I took a sharpie to it and wrote all over it with things like “I am more than just a number, so you [the scale] holds no meaning” that really helped!

  73. Lauren @ BIOCHEMISTA February 1, 2010 at 12:19 am #

    1) I love that you picked the name Gertrude!
    2) Fantastic quote, I’m writing it down.
    3) Q’doba drunk runs are the best!
    4) Let me know if you want a good au natural margarita recipe, it’s my specialty πŸ˜‰

    Great post girly!! πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  74. Naomi (onefitfoodie) February 1, 2010 at 5:25 am #

    hey lovah!!! can you believe I have never seen rent?!? i cant believe it sometimes! I saw the movie andknow all the music, but havenever seen it LIVE, ya know?? your yog messes look delish as always, I can always leave itup to you to have the prettiest bowl and make me want to drool all over!!

    you tell gertrude WHATS UP NOW!!!! go girl, you are doing amazing!!

  75. Lauren February 1, 2010 at 6:35 am #

    Girl, these yogurt creations of yours all look and sound so good. It’s amazing how delicious the combo of yogurt, cereal and nut butter can be. I could live off this for the rest of my life.

    Glad you are embracing your gain. Honestly, this world needs MORE of you not less, so just keep your head held high. More Shelly is a beautiful thing! πŸ™‚

    ❀ you!!!

  76. Bekah February 1, 2010 at 8:00 am #

    Your growth is so amazing to me Shelley! I still giggle sometimes when I read your blog and read your conversations with Gertrude.. even though it is NOT a laughing matter.. it makes me happy to see your progress.

    Love your yogurt messes! Trust me I have 3 small containers oikos in my mini fridge and a large fage. I will def get to those soon!

    Love that you don’t care about posting about the drinking thing. You rock babe.

    Have a happy monday my dear!

  77. Karin February 1, 2010 at 9:17 am #

    Oh I LOVE musicals!! They’re the best! I’ve never seen Rent before though. I adore Mamma Mia because it’s the first I’ve seen (years ago in London). I generally don’t weight myself because it makes me unhappy but yesterday it did. 😦 I hate it. Not because of the weight change (there’s hardly any) but because it reminds me of really bad days.

  78. quarterlifewellness February 1, 2010 at 9:30 am #

    Will you come be my personal yogurt mess chef?? Yours always look incredibly delish!

    I LIVE for musicals (hello, im 24 and I own all 3 high school musicals….wait thats just cuz im lame, ha) and West Side Story is BY FAR the best musical of all time!!!

  79. Gelareh @ Nutritious Foodie February 1, 2010 at 10:51 am #

    Good for you for standing up for what you believe in and your goals.

    I weight myself ONCE a week in the AM while trying to lose weight… I have now lost all the weight that I wanted to lose but still weight myself once a week. In my opinion weighting yourself is ok as long as you have a good relationship with the scale, but it can get hard wanting to weight yourself all the time.. if I ever feel like that is an issue with me I would just get rid of the scale.

  80. malpaz February 1, 2010 at 11:58 am #

    yogurt…i have been on the SEARCH for greek yogurt or FAGE and i cannot find it anywhere! i want to add it back in to my meal plan!

    i vote stay OFF the scale and put someone else in charge of knowing your weight. people are on your side and once you understand that youll know they arent out to get you and make you fat. part of the “trust” thing with recovery. trust yourself and your support team!

  81. Missy Maintains February 1, 2010 at 12:59 pm #

    Love your oats! I just started adding yogurt to mine last week and love it so much! I honestly hate weiging myself. I kind of freak out when I am a pound or 2 over what I usually am! I still do it maybe twice a month just to be held accountable.

  82. Kelly February 1, 2010 at 2:39 pm #

    I am so jealous!! I want to see RENT so badly! It came to Austin this past summer and so did Wicked. I could only go to one and I opted for Wicked (which was FABULOUS) but one of these days I am going to see Rent!

    As for weighing myself…I am a once a week gal. Just to keep me accountable.

  83. Rachael February 1, 2010 at 2:39 pm #

    When I saw “humo practice” I thought is said SUMO and was like wait…. what?!? I can’t really imagine you sumo wrestling. πŸ˜‰
    My favorite musicals are probably Rent and Wicked. I know, so unoriginal!
    As for weighing, it’s something I really struggle with. And I definitely find the the number effects how I feel. Like if I’ve gained I’m not allowed or supposed to be happy. Very messed up.

    Rachael*

  84. Sara February 1, 2010 at 2:57 pm #

    Hi Shelly!
    Love reading your blog, just a curious question… when you add PB to your yogurt messes do you mix it in or eat everything separately? haha just wondering!

    πŸ™‚

    • Shelley (findinghappinessandhealth) February 1, 2010 at 3:04 pm #

      i mix it in!! πŸ™‚ thanks for reading my blog

  85. jqlee February 2, 2010 at 4:19 pm #

    I’ve never seen “Rent” before but I’ve been meaning to do that! My last musical was “Jersey Boys.” I watched it live (I live in Chicago) and it was sooo good!

    I used to weigh myself everyday, like 10 times a day, before I work out, after I work out. Finally I got rid of my scale at home. I still weigh myself when I go to the gym though 😦 When I don’t have access to a scale though, I don’t think about my weight in numbers, I just worry about how I look/feel. However, if a scale is in front of me, I always want to get on it 😦 It’s not good though. I’m trying to free from weighing myself so much. I mean what’s the point? It’s not like I can gain/lose a pound everyday. The silly tricks our mind plays on us…

  86. katie February 2, 2010 at 6:36 pm #

    That is so true and funny that what your friend said ties in with the quote I have on here today! What agreat friend you have!! I see that you have many great friends surrounding you , a great boyfriend, and a great family, that really is important !!

    U need to do the wine glass parfait, your yogurt messes always look bomb, I tell you that always!!

    Lost rocks!!! If you ever want to start watching something, you need to get Lost on DVD and start from season 1 to season 5, thats what mike and I did,this is our first time to watch it on tv, we never watched it til last year by buying all the seasons on DVD, one thing that will stink about watching it on tv is commercials! Boo!!

    Love you girl have a great night! xoxoxo

  87. Brynne February 3, 2010 at 1:27 pm #

    I. LOVE. RENT. and Wicked. SO MUCH!

    And so jealous of the strawberry banana Chobani – it’s def my new favorite flavor and hasn’t hit supermarkets up at school yet 😦

  88. Astrid February 4, 2010 at 3:28 pm #

    Rent is one of my favorite musicals, too! You NEED to listen to and look up Next to Normal if you haven’t heard of it. I love this show so much!
    I don’t weight myself. My boyfriend hid the scale. Although I know where it is, I have no need to weigh myself. I know that my clothes fit and I know that I am eating well. And most importantly, I feel good, so I don’t need to know the number. Good for you for recognizing that the number doesn’t define you and that it is great that your body is energized and healthier now!
    I find you so optimistic, honest, and adorable.

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