It feels great to be back!
I forgot just how much I love Madison. When I am here, I truly feel at home. I don’t know why, considering i’ve only really been here for like 6 months, but I Just love the atmosphere! & Thank you all so much for your sweet comments- I can’t thank you enough for your kindness & support!
Before Gar & I embarked on our 8.5 hour road trip, i had a delicious breakfast which was kashi truly vanilla hot cereal, 1/4 cup egg beaters, pumpkin, banana, peanut butter, almonds & chocolate chips!
We always stop at Subway for lunch. I looked in advance to see what would best fit my meal plan. I know it isn’t the healthiest thing, but pre-Ed I used to love Italian BMTs. Gertrude told me that any meat beside turkey/chicken is bad but the italian BMT fit my meal plan PERFECTLY and all I needed was one more carb- enter, chicken noodle soup!
This sandwich tasted so good, I forgot how much I loved these :). 1 point Shelley, 0 Points Gertrude!!
I even managed to get in my afternoon snack despite feeling very sedentary in the car. I had this delicious bar & some dried apples! Me n Gar sang in the car a lot and I embarrassed him by dancing, particularly when other cars were nearby 🙂
When I got back to school, I was unpacking for a long timee.. it took a while! I was also so excited because a new grocery store called the Fresh Madison Market opened and it has organic items along with a hot bar & salad bar, fresh sushi, wraps, etc. 🙂 Just look at the bar selection!! YUM.
I had a really fun first night back! I got together with a bunch of my girlfriends from my sorority and we all went to Gar’s apartment and then to a bar! It was a great way to kickoff the semester. I snacked on trail mix later in the night.
For breakfast today I challenged myself! They were serving a breakfast sandwich that looked good & fit into my meal plan- I used to avoid it for whatever reason, but I decided to eat it today! It counted for 2 carbs, 3 fats, 3 proteins so it was a great nutrient dense meal. It felt really good to indulge in something like this! I didn’t even feel guilty afterwards because I knew it fit my meal plan.
I had to get all my books & run some errands so today has been crazy! Tonight I am going to the sorority house & watching Bachelor/relaxing before my first day of classes.
I wanted to talk about challenges. Everyone has challenges– eating disorder or not- and life is about how you face those challenges. You can either avoid situations in which you encounter your challenges, or you can face them head on, confront them, and overcome them. I am working on taking the second route. It is so easy to eat my “safe meals” but I think a huge part of my recovery is being able to overcome certain foods I have avoided. I have done this lately at Subway and for breakfast and I know doing things like this will make life easier. Why not indulge in some new foods if they fit the meal plan? What is the difference? Every day does not have to be a day full of challenges & beating challenges, however, it is an important part of life and I am going to try to overcome my fears & challenges more often!
I also wanted to talk about one of my FLAWS. I have a flaw of caring WAY too much about what people think. I think a lot of us have that problem, but for me it is something I am starting to notice. I am too concerned with doing what everyone else wants me to do and pleasing others and I really should be able to do my own thing and feel comfortable in my skin. In addition to working on facing challenges, I am also going to work on loving myself for who I am and not caring as much about what others think.
1) how do you deal with challenges?
2) what is a flaw that you want to work on and/or how do you deal with not caring a lot about what others think (or at least not letting it interfere with living your life) ?
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