Thank you all so much for your advice with regards to telling my family about my blog.
Before I tell you the decision I made, let’s just go through my Wednesday!
I woke up around 9 to eat breakfast (as I posted) & then lounged around until lunch at 1 with two of my best friends from high school. We went to Panera and I got the BBQ Chopped Chicken Salad with an apple on the side (4 carb, 3 fat, 3 protein)- DELICIOUS. I LOVE this salad!!
It was fun to catch up with some friends too 🙂 When I got home, I got on my computer. My Mom was on the couch and after like a minute of silence she said, “Shelley, I know about your blog.” I honestly just started laughing! I was so relieved that she found out, and I instantly knew telling her would have been the right decision. I am a believer of fate and am so glad the decision to tell her was made for me.
She said she was using my computer yesterday since I left it downstairs and my blog was up when she went on it. I am so happy I told her. Her and my dad are both so supportive of it! They think it is a great outlet for me and are impressed with it. I’m excited and even though I know it isn’t a huge deal, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
I decided to save my afternoon snack for later because I had to eat an early dinner at IOP at 5:30. At IOP I had a dinner which consisted of a turkey/cheese sandwich, graham crackers, peanut butter filled pretzels, veggies, & a pink lady apple (5 carb, 2 fat, 3 protein). I guess I eat a lot of apples? haha
It was family night so my parents came. It was a pretty good session and I liked hearing from some of the other parents. They showed us a pretty cheesy video though. I wanted to laugh the whole time but resisted 🙂
After IOP, I met my friend for a movie… we saw Princess & the Frog– yup! proud of it:) i’m really a 5 year old at heart. LOVED IT. Classic Disney.. I forgot how amazing it is!
During the movie I snacked on a peanut butter cookie larabar & some grapes! (= 2 carbs, 2 fats, 1 protein)
Afterwards, I stopped at Target right before it was closing because I was in desperate need of hand lotion but I also scored some s’mores goldfish (can’t wait to try these) & a really cute heart shaped bowl for oats, yogurt messes, etc. I felt like a creep being the last person in Target, but what can ya do?
Later I had my other snack (even though ‘Gertrude’ was saying not to!). I had to get in 2 fats, 1 protein, and 3 carbs. I kind of freaked because it seemed like so much for a snack, but I decided to once again, push away Gertrude, & just eat! Anyways, I was actually kinda hungry!
I had a peanut butter & jelly panini– yumm. With a side of some s’more goldfish 🙂 hehe. This was amazing. Why didn’t i grill a pb & j sandwich sooner?!
I have really started to recognize Gertrude’s voice more & more (i feel so cheesy saying this- but it is true). Gertrude was saying, ‘You don’t need this snack. It is too big ! Just put 1 Tablespoon of peanut butter.’ But i am SO HAPPY that I was able to shut that voice up, and follow my meal plan. My meal plan= my prescription and if i don’t follow it, i’m really not recovering.
I woke up this morning and guess what?! I didn’t feel HUGE for eating that snack. In fact, I felt fine. For once, I didn’t wake up hungry!
Nonetheless, I made a delicious breakfast in my new heart-shaped bowl from Target!! Loveee it. This was honestly the best bowl of oat bran i’ve ever had. I put 1/2 cup kefir with 1/2 cup of water, 47 grams of whole foods bulk bin oat bran, cinnamon, raspberries, & 2 tablespoons of cinnamon raisin swirl with a littttle bit of crumbled up graham for crunch 🙂
Yesterday, I had an appointment with my therapist at IOP. We talked a lot about exercise because I am struggling with not being able to. One of my triggers to make me feel “fat” or “gross” is hearing about others exercising since I can’t. She said something that actually really stuck with me. She said that whenever I see someone running or working out, I should always say to myself “I really hope they are doing it for fun.” That way, it takes the focus off their body/thinness & more on the fact that one day, I Hope to be able to have a healthy relationship with exercise where I am truly doing it for fun and not as a chore.
I understand that exercise is for health & it isn’t always fun. However, I think this is a really smart way to think about it. If people aren’t exercising for fun, then it really isn’t necessarily the best thing when you really think about it.
+ How do you keep your relationship with exercise a healthy one?
+ Any exciting plans for the weekend?