I feel like it has been forever!
Sorry to ‘disappear’ on you guys. I got home Saturday night, caught up with the fam, & then had to rush to Cincinnati the next morning.. so things have been hectic. I was going to a convention for a youth group I was the President of last year and it was a lot of fun because I got to see old friends and what not 🙂
At the airport Saturday night, I was astonished by Chicago O’Hare’s healthy choices! For dinner, I had an asian salad with chicken & a delicious dressing.
There was even a health food store in the freakin airport!! I was in airport heavennn & bought these:
My Sunday started nice & early, and with an amaazing cup of dark chocolate mint coffee- incrediblee! & a nice big bowl of oat bran 🙂 this bowl contained better n’ peanut butter, chocolate chips, banana, blueberries, & cinnamon. I love how the pb meltss into oat bran perfectly.
& that is just about where the foodie pics end 😦 I was a huuge slacker with the pictures because I was so busy!! But lunch on Sunday was a panera bbq chopped chicken salad with an apple & a dinner of like some cheesy/gross lasagna and caesar salad.
Today started out with a bagel & cream cheese (I KNOW.. not nutritious but delicious) and i was proud of myself for eating it! & Then i had to drive the 2 hour drive home.
Today was the day I started the outpatient program called IOP (intensive outpatient program). At 12, I met with a lady and she kind of gave me an overall mental health assessment. After treating myself to a little eyebrow wax & a lunch with my mama, I had a nutritionist meeting at 4 followed by the program from 5:30-8.
At the program, you are required to eat a meal and so I based mine off a temporary meal plan (since I hadn’t seen the nutritionist) and brought a turkey sandwich on whole wheat bread with pepper jack cheese, hummus, carrots, apples&grapes, and some kashi crackers. I managed to snap a pic!
It was so strange to eat with other eating disordered people. It was eye opening & really sad. I don’t want to divulge too much information, because these girls deserve privacy, but I will say that it is truly upsetting to know that so many girls are struggling with such terrible thoughts about themselves and their bodies. At the same time, It was also comforting to know i’m not alone.
I am going to be going to this program 3 days a week, and i’m actually looking forward to it. I feel like it will really benefit me and I think that it is the push in the right direction that I need.
I am really scared about the meal plan though. It is based on counting carbohydrates, meat/protein foods, ‘endurance fuels‘ aka fats, and vegetables. I am supposed to eat 18 carbs, 11 meat/protein foods, 12 fats, and 4 vegetables daily. It just seems like so much. 12 fats?! I really don’t know how this is going to work out for me but I am going to try my very best to follow the plan. She laid it out by meal and it is very doable. Sure, it will be difficult at first but I believe that this is what I need if I want to be healthy and live my life as best I can.
I’m excited to see what I get out of this program, and hope it maybe inspires some of you girls out there to seek the treatment you need 😀
Tonight i’m for sure relaxing/catching up on blogs/hanging out with Gar because I am soo tired from traveling and what not!
Also, i’m super excited because my Mommy bought me a panini maker!! I can’t wait to use this baby tomorrow 🙂
I’m going to be using my blog now to help me stay on track with the meal plan 🙂 I hope it goes well.
I’m loovving Christmas time (even though I’m Jewish). It seems like everyone is just happier! I hope you all have amazing holidays!! Christmas is so much fun, I am going to Gardner’s extended family’s dinner and they do a huuge secret santa, it’s cute. Done with all your shopping?? I’m certainly not!
Until next timeee…
ps- download this song RIGHT now: “Everything” by Michael Buble… i’m obsessed ❤