I can’t describe to you how happy I am to have my camera back working! I felt so… strange without it 🙂
Before I post, I thought i’d share a lovely photo of me from a Christmas Party this weekend. The theme- ugly sweater
Today started out with one of my new favorite breakfasts.
2 packets of this deliciousness
this is my new favorite breakfast! it is soo filling.. i think the two packets of oatmeal really does the trick. I was getting *gasp* kind of sick of my yogurt messes & plusss it is soo cold outside, so something warm is really refreshing!
Then I wasted my life away at the library! I took a lunch break of course & went to eat at our student union with Gardner! They have such amaaazing wraps.
Obvioulsy the library is incredibly boring, but seriously, how many people get this amaaazing view at their libraries..
For dinner, I celebrated my roommates birthday at Frida’s Mexican Grill! It was really fun & I had a mango margarita along with..
on another note. there is something I want to address,
first of all, I really appreciate everyone’s positive feedback on my blog! It means a lot that you think I am optimistic & on the right track. However, i’m not going to lie… I am struggling a lot more than I can describe. My conflict is that I don’t want the struggle to be the focus of my blog. I’m not saying this to offend anyone who uses their blog as an outlet, but I simply just want this to be a positive outlet. I find that when I blog in a positive tone, it helps me feel more positive in real life. Nevertheless, there are going to be times where I use this as a way to completely vent/bitch/call it what you will because recovery is so freaking hard!
I am honestly having a really hard night. I have noticed changes in my body and though the rational mind is telling me “YAYY!! You are getting healthier!” My ED Gertrude mind is saying “you are (the f word)”.. & honestly, I was telling Gardner this and I Just said “you know what… f you Gertrude“:) It felt really good & we laughed pretty hard. He is so great & supportive.
So my point is, I hope you all know that I truly do struggle every day. But I also am learning to talk back to Gertrude & get one step closer to living my life the way life should be lived… Gertrude-free & happy!! Life ISN’T about food (granted, it is essential to life).. it is about finding passions & living them out… & that is what I want to do. It’s what I need to do.
(i hope you all don’t think i’m weird for calling it gertrude- haha- i swear i’m not THAT weird)
On my next post (because I fear this will be too lengthy & I will lose some of you!–> I know i would get lost), I am going to address another issue i’m having– a girl with an eating disorder on my floor & how to deal/not to deal with her.
annnyywho- i’m on the final countdown to winter break…6 days! & I must say, I am bittersweet about it. Bitter–> I LOVE MADISON! I don’t want to leave. Sweet–> no school work for a month!! haha
What are your plans for winter break? Anything interesting? My plans aren’t that interesting, but I will be partaking in outpatient therapy officially 3 days a week at a center in Columbus. I hope it works magic =)
Any relaxing or possibly exciting Sunday plans? my plans include… you’ll never guess…. STUDYING
ps- what do you guys think of the font change? be honest =)