happy turkey day!! one of my favorite holidays for sure.
so the traveling went fine… I survived my flights without having any major freak outs 🙂 One of the parts of flying alone I like is the mystery of who I am going to sit next to. I LOVE making small talk with people on a plane… kinda weird, I know. I had an interesting conversation with a woman on my flight to Detroit. Do any of you enjoy small talk with strangers?
When I landed in Detroit it was time for some dinner so I made due with Wendy’s and ordered the mandarin chicken salad, used 1 packet of almonds and about half the dressing. I also was excited to find some soy crisps!!
It was sooo nice to finally be home and sleep in my own bed! & not to mention, have a KITCHEN to work with!
For a night time snack I had a large glass of chocolate soy milk, some almonds, & a sliced up pear.. it was the perfect snack
in this mix: 1/2 cup oats, 1 cup water, a banana, cinnamon raisin swirl, white chocolate wonderful, & some reduced sugar strawberry jelly. SOO good. I forgot how filling & delicious oatmeal is for breakfast. pb & j oats 🙂
I had a super busy day, starting witha facial and pedicure 🙂 hey, a girl can get pampered every now & then… it was fantasticc! & then I had two appointments (therapist/physician) which I will talk about later… so I was really busy! My mom & I ate lunch at Panera and I had the bbq chopped chicken salad with a whole grain baguette..it was delicious.
Dinner was sushi with my best guy friend from high school!
mine is everything except the 2 pieces of sashimi. It was all made with brown rice & one is a tuna roll & the other is california roll topped with salmon/avocado. I also had egg drop soup. & of course tonight I drank my ensure plus.
so as I mentioned, today was packed with doctor’s appointments. It was great to see my therapist from home. She is so understanding and really makes me feel like I am on the right track. She encouraged me and said that she thinks I can do this. The physician did some blood work and made sure I haven’t damaged my body with this, and fortunately everything was looking ok. Also, my weight is a bit up which is great. I really feel like I can do this. The physician told me that I shouldn’t exercise at all and this is really hard for me to swallow. I know that I shouldn’t, but exercising is such a part of my life- I feel happy, successful, & strong after a good run and I hate that I have to give that up for this period of my life.
But my dad gave me great advice.. he said “Shell, you have your whole life to be fit. Right now, get healthy… then you can work on your fitness.” & those words really resonated with me because I know he is right. It is just hard to let go.
But…I didn’t realize I had body image issues until recently but my problem is, I don’t see how skinny I look. It isn’t that I think i’m fat, but when I look at other girls, I don’t see that I am thinner and I just don’t see myself the way others see me. Today was mentally very challenging because I am struggling with doubting myself and believing that I have the ability to overcome this. I just hate how this has consumed me and I really hope I can achieve health.
Speaking of my Dad earlier, I wanted to dedicate this post to him (not that he reads this) and in the spirit of Thanksgiving, I’ve noticed lots of bloggers listing all hte things they are thankful for. I have so many things, but I am going to start right now & say I am extraordinarily thankful for my Dad.
My Dad is one of my greatest role models. He always has been. He lives a very balanced & successful life. He works hard in his career & he loves it, he has a very regular exercise schedule, he eats healthily but doesn’t obsess & is soo balanced, and he just seems happy. I strive to be like my Dad.
Hopefully I’ll write a post with more things i’m thankful for.
I hope you all have great holidays!! Hopefully I’ll be able to snap some shots of my thanksgiving dinner