hope everyone enjoys their Thursdays :)the weekend is so close I can taste it!
well, today was the big day… I met with a nutritionist here on campus named Marcy. I was pretty excited because I thought i’d go in there & she’d give me a plan and i’d leave feeling great, but I have to be honest..that’s not exactly how it went. 😦
The lady i was meeting with had a very serious tone, she seemed incredibly worried about my weight & made the situation seem REALLY serious. I’m not saying the situation isn’t serious, but I just wish she could have had a lighter attitude because it just stressed me out more. plus, when she weighed me I had gained some & so I felt like things are fine.
She told me that this is a really big deal & that living your live controlled by food/eating healthy/etc. is not the way to live. –> which I VERY much agree with
I guess I just wasn’t expecting her to be so serious and so it kind of made me sad/angry/annoyed. But when I left I realized i needed to be treated that way because I need to believe & understand that this is a big deal and actually try to change it. She suggested I ‘treat’ myself to things like froyo at least 2 times a week (which I did tonight!!) so I can try to get back to “normal” eating.
what is normal eating anyways? I mean, I don’t know if i’ll ever be able to be a ‘normal’ eater. I’ll always think about my food more than the average person I think. Anyways, I am going to meet with her on a weekly/bi weekly basis and she is going to weigh me each time. I think this is what I need and I am excited to hopefully get better/back to normal. I really do want HEALTH.
She said what I am doing now looks great, so that made me feel good at least.
I just really hope this is the help I need and this moves me in the right direction…
does anyone have good advice about how to make the best use out of a nutritionist if you go to one?
anyways, since the last time we talked I haven’t gotten too many interesting food shots 😦
last night I went to dinner with three of my friends at noodles & company- it was SO good but I didn’t take a picture since I was with my friends! I had bangkok curry with shrimp and a tossed salad on the side with fat-free asian dressing.
I found the best place on campus to study yesterday! It is called the Student Activity Center & it has a room that looks like this. How cool is that? I loved it!
while studying in there, I snacked on some TJ’s trail mix! really good 🙂
Today started with a delicious yogurt mess! boring, I know but I still couldn’t resist taking a picturee! i drank my ensure about an hour and a half later. this yogurt mess had VANILLA CHOBANI :), banana, a mix of golean and peanut butter bumpers, and some dark chocolate dreams! sadly, i am out of my greek yogurt.. grocery store trip in the near future?
I then went to my retail class & heard from Hy-Vee! It was ok, but I enjoyed catching up with my friend Abbey. Then, since the weather was nice, I went for a quick run with Gar OUTSIDE! It was a good run because we were going at a fast pace & I felt like we were really pushing each other. I’m so glad i’ve been running outside more, it really is better than the treadmill!
We then had lunch & I didn’t have my camera but it was pretty boring! I also snacked on a chocolate peanut butter nugo bar in my 4:30 class.
Dinner tonight was seasoned chicken breast, scalloped potatoes, & a salad that had spring mix, diced carrots/red peppers, couple pieces of broccoli & zucchini, mushrooms, a little tabouli (loveee tabouli), & lite raspberry vinaigrette dressing. yum!
Gar suggested bubble tea which has froyo for dessert & I didn’t hesitate to obligee 🙂
look how cute our froyos are!! mine is the vanilla w/ raspberries & his is cherry froyo with fruity pebbles, blueberries, & kiwi!
TRUTH–> part of me really didn’t want this because I knew I still had to drink my ensure and it seemed like so much, but I did it anyways.. & you know what. It was damn good!!
there has been a lot of talk in the ‘blogworld’ about why people have started their blogs. I’ve enjoyed reading about it from people like Rebecca, Mitri, & Devon… It is so important to make sure we are all blogging because we are truly inspired by each other & want to heal or share or passions, or whatever else, not to compare or any of that nonsense. I’ve personally been thinking lately about what my family & people close to me would think of my blog.
There is no way I want them to know (besides gar :-D) about it because it is personal & I wouldn’t feel comfortable, but I can’t help but wonder what they would think. do your families know about your blog? if so, what do they think about it?
another RANDOM tidbit- I thought i’d share something i’m proud of!
so before this whole disordered eating thing took over my life, I was always active (by the way, i’m going to update my story page this weekend! with much more detail) but I hated running. When me n Gar would run, I would be wayyy behind him & I would be pretty much dying.
over the past year, i’ve developed a love for running. Today, when Gar & I were running I felt fast & I felt great. It just feel so good to think about how far i’ve come with running & how I used to DIE when me n Gar would go for runs together and now i’m able to keep up with him (even though I know he slows down a bit for me). Even though part of me knows running is a bad thing with my disordered eating, there is a HUUGE part of me that does it because i LOVE the feeling after a great run & the motivation to keep improving that comes along with it.
ok rant over!
What is something YOU are proud of???
sorry this post was long!!