Happy November !!
Is it just me or is this fall FLYING by? I can’t believe halloween is over
I had suchhh a fun but exhausting weekend. way too much fun & way too little sleep was involved 😦 but i’m recovering today! I really did an awful job of taking pictures of my eats.. in fact, I really didn’t picture anything at all so i’m sorry but i promise i’ll get back on track this week.
I did, however, dress up as a mime….
& this is me & gar in our white trash costumee. haha just LOOK at him
yeah it was pretty much a crazzzy weekend.
how was your halloween? tell me stories!!
today, I walked into the little convenience store by my dorm that is attached to the cafeteria & saw that they got some new &healthy stuff!
even though i’m sooo incredibly stocked on bars right now, i still had to buy 4!! it was too tempting.. plus, I had never tried these before! I can’t wait. I’m also definitely going to have to try some of this kashi oatmeal asap 🙂
ok so i have to be honest– i have really been struggling with everything. I feel like i’ve been eating a lot lately & it is really stressing me out. I just haven’t been exercising as much b/c of my weight gain plan & that causes me a lot of anxiety. I just wish I didn’t think about eating and dieting and working out as much as I do.. i feel like it’s not normal and I shouldn’t let it get to me the way it does. I feel like there is no way to change at this point though & I feel like thoughts of food/exercise/etc. are just kind of ingrained in my head.
I feel like based on how i’ve been eating, I should have gained like 5 pounds already but my weight still ahsn’t gone up. I have this irrational fear that i’m going to wake up one day and have gained a lot of weight all at once. I know this isn’t practical but I really fear it. does anyone else have anxiety like this?
on a similar note: i love blogging.. i really do. i’m so happy i decided to do it. but i can’t help but wonder if this makes my thoughts about food & exercise worse? I mean, i think it helps me because everyone’s positive comments are so encouraging but at the same time I can’t help but fear that blogging my eats could only make me more obsessive? any thoughts? anyone who struggles with disordered eating have similar concerns?
can’t wait to catch up on all hte other blogs & hopefully have a more photographed post very soon 🙂